... so i found out ANOTHER ex is married, *sigh* IDK what it is about relationships. I want something not only real, but worth it... I broke up with the one i'm talking about because i didn't want to hold her back... she had this great life, and plans, and the ability to make it happen... and though we clicked, and were great together, I broke it off to keep me from holding her back... and she moved on... and i thought i did. I hate love. I hate being not in love. I hate being close to someone. I hate being alone. I hate wanting something so much you don't wanna let it go. I hate letting go of something because you want it to be happy. I've lost my faith, my freedom, and my will. But i still have hope, the ability to escape, and my pride. Confused? thats my life every day.